One of the most meaningful investments in life is an endured relation. The cost of these friendships are sometimes too heavy. I finally found a happy new guy...he's really blindsided me, completely taking me by surprise. He'll do anything to make me smile, and is such a genuine caring fellow..no hidden agenda, but part of me can't help but retract. I need to learn from my past without letting it dictate my future. But how? The more I learn, the less I know.